The Inane Ramblings of a Small Purple Wabbit

Ok, well, I was talking to a friend today about blogs, and the past, etc etc. And I realised, looking back through my livejournal, which I've kept for over 2 years now, there's nothing real in there. It's a chronicle of the meaningless flow of time – no real account of my mistakes or how I've bettered myself or anything. Whenever I do something wrong or hurt someone, I ignore it. I claim I angst, but I just self-pity, I don't admit my faults.

That's all going to change, starting today. First off, I'm going to make a new livejournal – I'm not deleting the old one, but I won't post there anymore. I want a clean slate, and a new journal will signify that for me – I'm also making it friends-only.

Secondly, I'm going to start posting anything I post on livejournal in my myspace blog. This is so that everyone (or the huge majority of people I know, at least) will see it. I want people who are friends with me to have no illusions.

Link to new journal is here: a_better_thing

Add me please, if you want to continue reading. This is kind of a test to see who actually reads this - unless you're incredibly important to me, if you don't add my new journal I won't add you to it.

See you all there :)

To one and all, a Merry Christmas!

To those I do not see beforehand, a Happy New Year!

I am sorry if I have been neglecting anyone over the Christmas period, it's been rather hectic. Normal service (i.e. my proper lj update) will be resumed on the 29th at the latest. Until then, my dears,

*hugs*

*runs off*

( my xmas stocking )

*sigh* this is why practical jokes are a bad thing. They never turn out the way you plan and then stuff just gets messy. :/

Stuff is a bit screwed right now, so not really in the mood to write alot, sorry. Just thought I'd let you all know I'm still alive. Proper update next week when hopefully I will be chipper in light of holidays etc.

*luff*

[EDIT] A friend just linked me to this. In lieu of any kind of boyfriend, this is what I want for Xmas. Whoever gets it for me will be showered with love, appreciation and an equally cool gift of their choice. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease? :P

http://www.ibuzz.co.uk/

Well there's been some interesting happenings the last few days, so I thought I might as well write an entry that actually contains some information on what goes on in my life XD

So, the 'dwellers of the back row' (as I and my law cohorts are now known) have sunk into a routine which is both amusing and fulfilling :P - we, rather obviously, nab the back row in lectures, and then proceed to write notes to each other if the lecture is boring. When notes are exchanged between the males of our lil group (which is anyone but me actually) they tend to include insults, ranging from James' weight (he's a little on the chubby side and Jesus, Pete does not let him forget it ¬¬ ) to the curlyness of Pete's hair, to the heritage of both. *sigh* why must men trade insults like this? I swear, if they were baboons they'd be fighting over whose bottom was redder...

Tis amusing, though, so I guess it's acceptable - plus all is taken in good humour :P

We also have our regular Thursday outing to the Gunnies in the four hour gap between the Criminal and Public lectures (although I will have to miss this tomorrow due to a stupid land law supervision ¬_¬ ), where we have a few pints in preparation for the deathly ennui that is a double Public Law lecture. Generally we skip out half way through actually, made bold by alcohol and the promise of getting home an hour early :P

So yes, the point of that little ramble was that I'm doing quite well ont he friend fromnt, i.e. I have some ^_^ - this I am pleased about.

Monday night was the Pritchatt's Park Xmas Ball - was a very fun night :) - although two of my flatmates had an almighty row and so I had to go with one of them to the toilets as she was crying her eyes out. As I was comforting her, we heard noises from a toilet, looked in and found another of our flatmates throwing up! :S - I stayed with her for a bit, but it was finally decided that she should be taken home so Becky got a taxi back with her - wasn't that pleased at having to pay for a taxi home and back, and I can't say I blame her.

After that, though, the night was a success - Donn got lucky and disappeared outside with his pull for most of the night - he was also completely drunk, having downed copious amounts of the free wine that was on the tables :P - the dinner was good, and ok, the songs at the disco were crappy but what the hell do you expect? They were very Borad Street-y.

I did get a little depressed at the end of the evening with all the couples milling around and me on my tod, but ah well, can't be helped :P - all in all was a fantastic night, heehee ^^

Tonight I'm going over to JD's for...something, I'm not sure what, lol - he said something about a student night somewhere so I assume drinking will occur at some point, but tbh I wasn't listening to WHAT he proposed we do, I just jumped at the chance of a night out :P

Then Friday is Xmas night-out at Subway City with the Law peoples: note-to-self: do NOT drink spirits and then get all depressed like last time, it is a BAD plan and will alienate your friends...

( Because you'd probably think I was ill if I didn't angst about something )

So yup, that's about all for now - see, I actually wrote an informative update, lol, go me! :P

*luffles to all* byebye for now

xxx

This entry will probably make no sense, but I kinda feel like I need to set my feelings out. So bear with me, sorry.

Ok, at the risk of sounding arrogant, I know I'm attractive. I mean, logically, in my head, I know it. Kinda. But....at the same time, I somehow have no self-esteem. I bet a whole load of you are reading this thinking 'oh yeah, low self-esteem, she just said she's attractive, geez, what a cry for attention.' If you are thinking that, I'm sorry but you can fuck off right now - you have no idea what it's like to be me, and feel how I feel, so don't be so judgemental.

There's a huge difference between knowing you're physically attractive and feeling like you are worthy of people thinking so.

For example: since I came to uni, I have been either persued or admired by quite a few people. And while in a way it's been very flattering, it's also lowered my self-confidence. No one seems to care about the person I am - the fact that I might be good to talk to, or a good friend, or whatever - no, it's all about how I look. I can't help thinking that a lot of the people I know wouldn't be so close to me if they didn't think I was attractive, and that really hurts. Am I not worth getting to know as a person? Am I really only a piece of meat for people to gawp at and flirt with?

I sometimes feel like the fact that I'm not ugly blinds people to what I'm really like. And what I'm really like is I can be a bitch. Maybe I'm not a good person, or a good friend? Maybe I'm not worthy of people's love and care? Sometimes I don't talk to people I know are upset because the fact that I can't think of anything useful to say makes ME feel bad. Sometimes I don't reply to text messages through a purely selfish laziness. Sometimes I take the coward's way out of situations. Sometimes I do things regardless of the harmful consequences to the people I love.

All of these things make me a horrible person. And it doesn't matter that I'm attractive, I'm still all those things. I'm still the neglectful friend, the coward, the bitch.

I don't want people to see that person. And so I accept the love and care people give me, that I don't deserve. And if that care is fuelled by the fcat that I'm physically attractive, I accept that too. Because maybe it's better to have friends for something superficial, than to have none?

I don't know. All I know is that I'm doubting myself. If I wasn't attractive, maybe some of the people I call my closest friends wouldn't want to speak to me, or know me.

Maybe.

I'm feeling pretty shit right now, to be honest. Certain things aren't going as well as I hoped they would, I have a supervision at 4 that I haven't started the work for (and if anyone says anything even close to 'well it's your own fault' I swear I will come after them with a machete ¬¬) and I feel too down to be able to concentrate on it. I have essays to do. I am supposed to go to a 2 hour lecture now, but I'm going to skip it, which is going to make me feel more shit about myself.

Basically, stuff is crap right now, and I feel worthless. I hate it when I get like this.

I was really looking forward to this weekend for many reasons, and it all went wrong. I acted like a complete twat on Friday night and don't know how I can fix that. I was looking forward to seeing my mum, but instead of wanting to spend time with me and talk and stuff (I haven't seen her for 2 FUCKING MONTHS) she made me help her carry heavy furniture around! I've had a shit weekend, CERTAIN PEOPLE are ignoring my text messages and I just feel like no one cares. And for the record, I'd rather not have the obligatory 'we care' messages atm. I appreciate the sentiment, but since none of you will be the person I actually want to tell me he cares, it will just make me feel worse, however nicely meant. Sorry.

( about him )

It's all so confusing.

Yeah, sorry about the angsty-ness. Guess you must all get pretty pissed off at me.

[EDIT] since posting this we've spoken and agreed it just wasn't working. Not feeling great abotu it, but i know it's the right decision.

Stuff is good ^_^

Erm, yes, that's all for now - possible elaboration later XD

So yesterday was my 'magic of Christmas' day for this year ^_^

I've had a pretty good weekend ^^ - Friday night stayed over at Rory's, we were gonna go out but decided not to in the end, the Saturday we decided to go poster shopping at Nostalgia, so tripped into town happily. I screwed up the courage to finally check my account balance and MY LOAN IS THROUGH! \o/ *dances* So then I brought three posters (bunny suicides, happy-bunny, and family guy) to brighten up my room a little, as well as volumes 9 and 10 of FMA ^_^ so wabbit happy and bouncey now.

Me and Rory had a quick nose at the German market, brought toffee apples and wandered round happily, then he went off to get his bus back and I headed back to New Street. Met up with [murray] from the W+B forums and we had a wander round Brum plus a good chat - I pissed him off by dragging him round shops in which to expend my newly acquired loan, lol, then we went to the German market (as he's never seen it before) and had hot cherry beer and pretzels that were like sandwiches \o/ it rocked basically. Definitely buying a whole load of Xmas prezzies from there! :P Then we went to the Square Peg for a couple of drinks before he had to get his train back to Stoke, again, had a good chat which was nice :)

Richie text me saying he'd been abandoned so I said if he'd come meet me in Brum I'd go Subculture with him, so we did that and it was pretty fun ^^ - lol, there were girls wearing tiny little outfits, so (for a laugh) I went up to one and asked how much she got paid to wear it. £20 a night it turns out :P - she also suggested I go down to the stage and inquire about it 'cos "You're gorgeous" XD - which i did, for the hell of it, and was told there were no vacancies XD again. The music was good and for once I didn't get too drunk - always a good thing cos it means I don't end up getting off with random ugly guys \o/ Did get knocked over by people 'moshing' on the dance floor though >.> - it's not a fucking gig, Jesus >.< - lol, got hauled up by the armpits by some random guy, I think, which was pretty funny, and then Richie sat me down and made sure i was ok - just a skinned elbow really :P

Around quarter to one I realised I was getting a bit sleepy so decided to call it a night and left Richie in Subculture, since i didn't wanna drag him out - got a cab back to my flat ok, and only got slightly screwed-over money-wise :P

So yeah, good day, good night. The German Market really is magical, and especially drinking hot cherry beer, wrapped up in new scarf and gloves, chatting to a friend in the dark with the Christmas lights and German market smells all around - made me feel so magical and Christmassy, it rocked ^^ - Everyone, you MUST NOT miss going to see the German market, it'll make your Xmas - I personally plan to go at every opportunity XD

So yeah, happy bouncy wabbit - life is good, uni is doable (2:1 on my first essay, I pwn! XD ) AND tonight I'm going to the halfway house in Mere Green for drinks with James from my course and some of his mates, INCLUDING Philip Cobbold who was pretty much my best mate a primary school and I haven't seen since then! Turns out James went to school with him! So \o/ - really looking forward to that :)

So yeah, I'm off to have a shower now, hope you all had equally awesome weekends *huggles and luff to all*

OH. MY. GOD.

This entry has one purpose and one purpose only. That is to discuss the sheer awesomeness that is Casino Royale.

I went to see it yesterday. I didn't have very high expectations to be honest. Good God was my mind changed!

( Here be spoilers )

Action sequences in the main film were excellent - exciting, breath-taking (had me covering my eyes a few times) and YET no over-use of special effects, or stupidly implausible gadgets/vehicles. Simple yet effective seems to be a by-word for this movie, and it worked like a charm.

I was very impressed by the close keeping to the plot of the book - one of my main gripes against the Bond films is that, by-and-large they tend to take one theme from the book then disregard the rest in favour of sex scenes, action sequences and witty quips. Casino Royale stuck to the book and yet still managed to get in plenty of action, passion and humour. Proof that Ian Fleming has not been given enough credit as a writer, as once the film-makers got back to the basics of one of his books, the resulting film was superior to many of the others. I was also genuinely impressed by how seemlessly the book had been modernised, yet kept so close to the original story.

I could go on and on about this film, but I'll restrain myself. Simply put, it's excellent. Amusing, sexy, exciting - everything you want from a Bond film. If you don't come out of this film wishing you could still be watching it, I'll be incredibly surprised. (And girls, you'll come out wanting Daniel Craig quite a lot...)

For any of you who have shamelessly abandoned ctrlaltdel (like I had *guilt* ) go start reading it again! It is as great as ever!

So, yeah, I'm in the common room in the guild - supposed to be working, but procrastinating instead. I want to get my work done before i go back to my hall so that when I get there i can concentrate on tidying the place up, washing up stuff, doing laundry, etc. It probably won't happen, but it's nice to have a plan anyway :P

So, yesterday and Monday were quite...bland, actually. I seem to be spending an awful lot of time in my room on the net, which is a bit sad and worrying :/ - feels like i don't actually have anything else to do really. Having said that, Rory might be coming over tonight, so that will drag me out of my shell a bit if it happens and force me to be sociable, lol XD

I did have a fun time with Pete, Jimmy, James and Charles between land law lectures yesterday, come to think fo it - we went to the common room, and the boys played darts. There was the usual very very disturbing and wrong conversation topics, but was all quite amusing. Quote of the day came from Jimmy in the lecture though: *Jimmy stares at the ceiling as Pete and Charles exchange crude jokes* Ellie: does the ceiling help you ignore them? Jimmy: I'm asking God to forgive them...

We lolled. Maybe you had to be there - it was just the way he said it XD

At least me, laura and parmela now have a topic for our criminal law research project. Stiil not sure what we have to do, but it's gotta be a start, right?

Well, I'd probably better get some work done. Talk to you all later, luff you ^^ *huggles to all*

Realised I hadn't updated in aaaaaaaaaages, except to moan about missing Keaney, lol. So have a whiny and complainy update, lol.

( rant about lighting and flatmates )

Meh.

Anyway, erm, since I last updated, there have been pretty fireworks, and a halloween party where I got rather more drunk than I should have done (as in, there are pictures of me on Facebook that I don't remember being taken XD ). There has been pretty Reading week with pretty Angel boxset ^^ although I've had less time to watch it than I thought I would. o.o

Went to see Saw III with Pete and Charles off my course on Friday, which was fun. Pete was laughing at me because I was sitting covering my face and trembling, lmao. Gratuitous and bloody violence FTW! (Erm, note: if you dislike gore in any way, STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM THAT FILM!) Lol.

Got incredibly depressed while out at Subway City Friday night (damn alcohol >.> ) and ended up screaming in Pete's face when he tried to comfort me. Ouch. he was pretty drunk also, though, so I don't think he remembers/holds it against me. Still, it's not a good sign when you get so down you scream at your mates.

I really need to get up and shower, but i don't want to :P *shnuggles her bed* Plus, if I dont leave my room, the worst my flatmates can do is push notes under the door: if I leave, they can moan at me in person >.< - probably complain at me for showering 'why do use the facilities and yet do nothing about fixing the lights?' whinge whinge whinge >.< Idiots.

I have an essay in for monday, that I'm going to have no time to do. This is not a good thing.

Mac yesterday was fun, saw some people I haven't seen for a while, had a nice chat with Foxy, which was good cos I haven't really spoken to him properly for ages ^^; - also got into conversation with Maj, which was cool cos never really talked to him before. AND I didn't get drunk! Bonus!

I've started to decide that getting drunk is not a fun experience, and one to be avoided whenever possible. This decision was partly due to the fact that I threw up on the pavement in the middle of Brum town centre on my way back from Pete's yesterday morning... ¬_¬ - if it had been the middle of the night, it wouldn't have been so bad, but 11a.m.? No, not fun.

So anyway, i think that's about all i have to say of any interest, hope you're all ok, *love and stuff*

Shit.

Shit, shit, shit.

I have a tip for everyone - don't go back and read through your lj entries from the beginning. Best way ever to make you feel like slitting your wrists.

It's not that I regret the way things are right now. I know the decisions I've made (the big ones) were the right ones. But...I wish it could all have worked out differently. I was so happy. It was so good. And now, I'm not, and it's not. What we had is gone and I just wish I could recapture that happiness, no matter how wrong for me it was.

When i was with Keaney, I sometimes used to get little twinges - you know, nothing like 'I wish I was back with Mike' but 'I'm so sorry it didn't work out, because he was lovely and I miss him' - it didn't happen a lot, and it didn't make me love Keaney any less, I guess it was just nostalgia.

Now I'm having the same thing with Keaney. I keep thinking about how happy I was when i was secure with him. I know it just wasn't working, but I wish so much it had. I miss him. God, I miss him so much. This is worse than it was with Mike, with him it was just twinges, with Keaney it's full-blown assaults on my emotions. I want so much to ring him and beg him to get back together, and i know it's the nostalgia working on me, and it sucks massively.

Why do I get myself into these situations?

I don't want to go back to my flat ;_;

See, here's the deal. The other day, I made myself some garlic bread, then went out. An hour later I got a text from my flatmate saying 'Ellie, you should be more careful, you left the oven on with a tea towel stuck in it which almost caught fire and now it's ruined!'

-_- shit

Well, I got back on saturday thinking I was gonna be bawled out of existence, but they all seemed ok with me, so I just said I'd pay for the tea towel and everything's been fine.

But yesterday (I haven't been back to my flat since then) I got another text, this time saying 'Ellie, you've had Emily's pizza cutter for a week now and haven't washed it, that's really out of order, fine, don't wash your own stuff but have the decency to wash other people's when you use it'

True words. The problem is, it's locked in my room currently, so when I get back I will definitely get bawled at. I know it's my fault, but I don't want to go back and have that happen. But the longer I leave it the worse it will be. This sucks. ;_;

In other news, life goes on pretty much as it always does. Did a pretty stupid thing on Friday night, but luckily it seems to have sorted itself out now. Still, my drunkenness and impulsiveness do not go together very well. It's not a good thing -_-

Still, apart from the flat-related stress, I'm pretty happy. Halloween party at Eddie's (the club) tonight - thinking of going as either a pirate or a cowgirl. Either way, should be a laugh - will try and see Becky M as well at some point tonight.

Have fun guys, talk to you laters *luff*

So, I wanted to update, but unfortunately for you lot (or maybe fortunately, depending on your view :P ) i can't be bothered to go into any detail, so instead you get bullet points. Yus. *nods*

> I brought shopping. Including oven pizzas so I don't have to cook \o/

> Supervisions are a pain in the ass to prepare for and boring as hell - basically they suck arses - I had three this week >.<

> My team claimed last place in the social centre pub quiz - go our lack of knowledge! \o/

> I seem to have completely forgotten anything that happened on Monday evening, which is somewhat worrying... o.o

> Tuesday I saw Spoon, went to Rock Soc band night and met the bassist from one of the bands playing - which was fun ^^

> Wednesday I went for a jamming session with Rich and Rory, who can play guitar really well, and learnt to play guitar - and also somehow came away with a guitar - SCORE!

>Today i went to see The Grudge 2 with Keaney and it scared the shit out of me ;_;

> I am now single

*luffles to all*

I slept with a glowstick! XD

That is all.

Yus, I have been kidnapped by a Sarri and am in the land of all things Mancunian. I do not know where anything is! Come back sweet, familiar Birmingham, all is forgiven!

Heehee, actually it rocks - got here at about 7 last night and met Sarri at the station, then we walked back to hers and she made me pasta ^^ and we messed about on the internets yush - then we watched Rocky Horror, which is weird heehee. It is very wrong that I find Tim Curry attractive as a bisexual transvestite in corset and stockings is it not? Yes, Wabbit, yes it is. >.>

Anyway, then we slept ZOMG what a strange thing to do at night. I woke up at 9 and Sarri was at the computer so I spent some time contemplating how very sleepy and bleh I felt and then we had breakfast of coco pops ^^ and I got dressed. (Ooh, side note - I brought a pretty purple chiffon-y scarf the other day that has skulls on and I wear it round my neck and it looks so pretty ^^ - like, Jackie O-esque kinda, well I like it anyway, just need the big sunglasses now :P )

Then we went out in search of food, so went to Subway for me and Tescos for Sarri to get sushi, and I brought Brunchettas! XD They rock alot. And then we sat on benches and ate. And THEN we went to the cinema to see Marie Antoinette, which was pretty good EXCEPT that they had Louis XVI fighting the American War of Independance and he DIDN'T!! That was Louis XV, imbeciles! It wouldn't bother me so much except that I studied it last year, and come on, that's a pretty huge thing to get wrong, yes? Stupid film makers ¬_¬

So yus, then we came back to Sarri's, and she is reading Wicked! while I steal her computer, mwah hah hah!

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Also I went out Thursday night with Rich after finding out ZOMG he is still at BHam Uni - so we went to Frankie and Benny's and had dessert and cocktails XD and then DDR'd and then it RAINED so I didn't want to leave shelter but otherwise we would have waited around for ages so we ran and I got soaked and my trousers and shoes got so wet I felt like I'd gone paddling! ;_; And then we stood and waited for the bus and it didn't come ;_; - but we rang teh KYLE and spoke to him, yush ^_^ so that was teh fun! And then we gave up on the bus and walked to Eddie's, where we met many people including people off Rich's course and a strange 37-yr old who tried to hit on me and brought us sambuca ^^ (sp?) and I got quite drunked, lol - OH also I kicked Rich's ass at a vodka shot contest, PWNED! :P

Unfortunately, due to drunkenness and hung-over-ness, I missed all my lectures on Friday >.> <.< Bad Wabbit.

But yus, good week ^^ hope you are all well and happy etc. *luffles to all*

So I've finally got my timetable sorted out! Although I'm annoyed >.< - Wednesday is my one day a week that I don't have lectures - so one of my supervisors has to go and slap her supervision sessions right in the middle of it doesn't she? *fumes* Plus, on tuesdays and fridays I have 9'o'clock lectures! *cries* I can't get up that early! This is definitely student abuse on the part of the Law Faculty!

So anyway, I have been ill ;_; - my bastard friend Neil gave me his cold (AND he's a fucking medic - you'd think he'd be at least partly knowledgeable in how to not pass his germs to the entire student population! >.>) - and now my throat is all phlegmy and hurty and it's not nice ;_; - I need hugs :(

BUT I did go to Alton Towers with my halls yesterday ^_^ which was very very fun - went on two new-ish rides that I hadn't had a chance to go on before and both were excellent; Spinball Whizzer and Rita:Queen of Speed - the second is shit-scary, 'cos most rides if they have really fast/scary bits they build up to them, but this one just starts off with an accelaration from 0-100mph in about 3 seconds, it's so fast you don't even have time to scream, it ROCKS! ^_^ Plus i went on Air and Nemesis and Blade and Hex and Enterprise - not Oblivion because I didn't feel like waiting an hour for a ride that lasts about 20 seconds, and pisses me off with it's 'Don't. Look. Down' bullshit into the bargain. But all in all, a very fun day was had. And Marcia brought a Spongebob Squarepants balloon which she and Becca then proceeded to walk round the park holding hands with! XD

By the way, I feel a little abandoned by all of you! ;_; - none of you have commented on my lj for ages and it feels a bit like you've all forgotten my existence :( - I'm not looking for essays but a little acknowledgement that there's a point in me updating might be nice? Yes?

*love you all* byebye

Yo!

Heehee, what's the best way to eat cheaply while at uni? Scav food off relatives! In return for me helping my grandma make xmas pudding today, I get two completely free and effortless meals! WIN! Lol. Plus my grandpa found me an aerial cable for my tv and my grandma gave me cook books. So I say yay for relatives! \o/

Aside from that, grr at having to read cases *groans* - it's annoying because the issue in question is quite interesting but it's mind-numbingly boring to read the case because of the stupid legal language everything is said in. Jesus, would it kill these Law Lords to be concise - oh, sorry, I forgot, why use 5 words if you can use 15? >.< stupid lawyers (yes, I am aware I am condemning my future profession, ssshhh!)

Heehee, twas skool disco at the guild last night, plus Vernon Kay was DJing ^^ - I always thought he was pretty good looking, but Jesus, he's not half so nice in real life! - however he is a VERY good DJ, so I forgive him for being ugly :P - plus I got all sweaty, and possibly killed my voice a little, screaming along to 'don't look back in anger'

Anyway, yus, stuff is good, and now I have to go eat. Love you all (comment biatches! :P )

I finally have shiny connected internets in my room ^^ - it rocks. Plus, I have finished what is known as 'Week 1' of Semester 1 of the first year of my law degree. Golly gosh, at this rate i'll be graduating in no time!

Ok, i think i may be a little hyper. But uni is teh fun! ^^ despite the lectures and stuff - actually i don't have many this week, because we're still doing Introduction to the Study of Law. I do have three supervisions for which i have to read a load of complicated cases though o.o - tis scary and difficult and i should really get on with it rather than playing with shiny new internets.

Ah well

I have been busy attempting to make friends, and it has been pretty successful - I get on quite well with the guys in the flat across the park, plus I am gradually building up a study group from the people on my course - this not only allows me to pick the brains of others (heehee) but it means i know the names of people and thus can infiltrate their doings! I am teh cunning! Yus.

I should really stop going out so much though - i am running out of money rather more quickly than i anticipated, which is not good. I now have about £70 to last me til my loan comes through, which at this rate won't be til december *rolls eyes* - starvation here i come! :p

So yus, anyway, i hope you are all bouncy, hopefully i should be updating a bit more regularly now i have internet. *luffles to all*